Eric's rape fantasy

Hi all, im new here. I ve been reading very interesting posts here about the shooting and I found links to the boys journals. Well I readed Dylan's yesterday adn today started  the Eric's one. On 11/17/98 he wrote some particular things about sex, more speacylly rape, andnobody seem to start a post about, so here it is.

Eric wrote:

you know what maybe I just need to get laid

Eric wrote:

I am a fucking dog. I have fantasies of just taking someone and fucking them hard and strong. someone like [censored] were I just pick her up, take her to my room, tear off her shirt and pants and just eat her out and fuck her hard. I love flesh..weisses fleisch! [white flesh -Ger] dein weisses fleisch emegt mich so..Ich bin dech nr ein gilt! I want to grab a few different girls in my gym class, take them into a room, pull their pants off and fuck them hard. I love flesh, the smooth legs, the large breasts, the innocent flawless body, the eyes, the hair, jet black, blond, white, brown. ahhh I just want to fuck! call it teenage hormones or call it a crazy fuckin racist rapist... es ist mir egal. [it is all the same to me. -Ger] I just want to be surrounded by the flesh of a woman, someone like [censored] who I wanted to just fuck like hell, she made me practically drool, when she wore those shorts to work.. instant hard on.. I couldnt stop staring. and like [list of names] in my gym class, [censored] or whatever in my gym class, and others who I just want to over power and engulf myself in them. mmmm I can taste the sweet flesh now.. the salty sweat, the animalistic movement. Icccchhh lieeeebe ....fleiscccchhh. who can I trick into my room? I can sweep someone off their feet, tell them what they want to hear, be all nice and sweet, and then "fuck em like an animal, feel them from the inside"

He's talking about one girl especifically girl and later made a list of others in his GYM class. Who do you think they were?

And, if he really had this fantasy, why the day of NBK he didt do it? I mean, it was the most important day in his life, he was the "boss" walking arround the school with a gun, I dont want to sound rude, but it was the moment if he want's to rape a one of his partners.

That would be all for now, i will complete my reading and came back here to more discussion!! Greets all!

I think the general consensus around here is that Eric really wasn't talking about rape. He was a hormone filled teenager who was still a virgin so he wanted to have sex for sure and liked a lot of girls but I don't think he would have raped anyone.

and the 20 was not about sex for him at all. He was out to do damage and destruction. I suppose he could have raped someone that day but that wasn't in the game plan for them at all

He'd have probably been overpowered by half the girls in his class if he had tried to rape them.

I don't think he'd have a problem doing it like most think he would have done. He shot people cowering under tables - I wouldn't put rape beyond him. As mentioned above - it just wasn't part of the plan.

He didn't rape anyone because it was neither the time or place, very inconvenient. He didn't want to be remembered as a rapist but a mass murderer.

I know we've talked about this immensely somewhere on this forum until some of us got into fights. I wish I knew where to find it

Well, first thanks for the replies. I think maybe Lizpuff is rigth, he was looking other thing, but is hard to belive to me, that someone like Eric, that reached his limit point that morning (4/20) that he was willing to do almost anything, I mean, the original plan was blow the entire cafeteria.

I dont thing him being overpowered by anybody, he did have the time or place, its as easy as grab one girl, take her to am empty room and five, ten, minutes as much, he were out there 45 minutes killing and blowing things. If he didnt touch any girl was because he didnt want or maybe happened and we will never know.

And [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.] im sorry if is a repost, I've searched on the magnifying glass and found two other things non related.

Taladro wrote:

Well, first thanks for the replies. I think maybe Lizpuff is rigth, he was looking other thing, but is hard to belive to me, that someone like Eric, that reached his limit point that morning (4/20) that he was willing to do almost anything, I mean, the original plan was blow the entire cafeteria.

I dont thing him being overpowered by anybody, he did have the time or place, its as easy as grab one girl, take her to am empty room and five, ten, minutes as much, he were out there 45 minutes killing and blowing things. If he didnt touch any girl was because he didnt want or maybe happened and we will never know.

And [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.] im sorry if is a repost, I've searched on the magnifying glass and found two other things non related.

It's OK if things are reposted because different people and different opinions come and go.

On the morning of 4/20/99, Eric was walking around knowing he was going to die by midday.  He knew he might have to put a gun to his own head.  I doubt sex even crossed his mind.  Raping some time before the massacre would have jeopardized the plan.

Did you mean 4/20?

From what I recall, I didn't believe he was a potential rapist at all. Meanwhile the argument was that if could kill people, why wouldn't he rape someone if he had the opportunity to? If he did that prior to 4/20 he would get caught so why not on the day itself?

I made it very clear that it was just a horny fantasy piece and he probably jerked off right afterwards. I argued that he was chivalrous (in the beginning with a girl at least) and he would be too afraid to hurt a girl he liked that way. Besides, he was a virgin he wouldn't know what to do.

**** PLEASE read what I've written here carefully. I'm not trying to go out of my way to accuse, hurt, or disrespect anyone here on this forum or in this thread. I'm overall doubting that whoever did what I'm about to discuss are even on this forum, or ever were. They were likely just lurking.****


While a number of people have certainly discussed their opinion concerning this subject (and not just here. For a good decade or more, people have been analyzing this in other places, articles, and so on), the only thing I can remember resembling the view being discussed by a few above is [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.]



This linked post of mine has been regurgitated ad nauseum on tumblr with NO credit to me whatsoever for the last 3 years.



They made it a point to slightly trim it down and change a few words around (thinking no one would notice, well they thought wrong), but the point is: certain people on tumblr stole my post, point blank period.



It's probably still going around to this day, with them taking credit for it, for all I know.



I kept my mouth shut about this (with the exception of ranting and venting about it to Jenn 3 years ago), but I am SO sick of the plagiarizing that goes on over there, I had to finally say something, regardless of how many years later.





Now, what happened here on this forum (where people are remembering these threads and discussions that they're getting confused about, and are having a difficult time finding them now) is very likely the following:



People were discussing Eric's "hit list", and there was confusion about someone being on it that wasn't, so I posted [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.]



In that post I linked to another thread, and in it, you'll later find [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.].



That leads directly to the first link I shared above [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.]



I hope this helps.

Ok [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.] i will read it now! Thanks for the advice pal.

I'm trying to look for the thread that I recall I think arguing with [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.] regarding this topic.

[You must be registered and logged in to see this link.] if you find, post it here too.

Is this the one [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.]?

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Oh my goodness [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.] are you godsend? Yes that is EXACTLY the thread! infact it's my own lmaooooo

[You must be registered and logged in to see this link.] okay so you can read this one [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.] and this one [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.]

Great! Thanks all, i will read it this night when i have a little time.

Glad I could help!

He just valued his sacrifice and the message behind it way more than casual sex, I think. He wasn't in the right state of mind to please himself like this