Where to find Nancy Lanza's notes about Adam Lanza?

I've read somewhere about the note Nancy wrote about Adam Lanza, but I forgot where I found it.
As far as I can remember, the note detailed about how Nancy was worrying about how AL could fit into society and how he should be able to know about how dating works? She also mentioned there that AL is "possibly suicidal" something along this lines, I'm not sure.

If the majority of the people who have researched about Sandy Hook will say that I'm crazy then I'll assume that I'm probably crazy. But if anyone is familiar with what I said, please share the source??

I remember reading about how nancy thought adam was suicidal and im not exactly sure where this was said but i think it was probably in an email she sent to one of her friends

joaingo wrote:

I remember reading about how nancy thought adam was suicidal and im not exactly sure where this was said but i think it was probably in an email she sent to one of her friends

Where can I find Nancy's emails? All articles just paraphrase and quote, I'd like the full versions, if available.