I haven't read all of Dylan's journal, but there is one passage that really interests me. It's where he talks about he feels better than any other great man because he has found his true love. I know he wrote in his journal of multiple girls (at one point literally guessing - "could be -redacted-, -redacted-, etc") that he thought may be his true love. Do you think this passage below refers to a specific person? Or do you think it is that he is in a state of certainty that there is a true love for him somewhere, which is an uncertainty for many other people? He seemed to frequently change his mind about who it may be, so I'm just trying to understand why he is so certain here...
To My Love
As a man, a conquerer does his deeds of
greatness, He thinks he is complete. Yet, the true
great person achieves happiness only when he
has met his soulmate.
Alone unknown until the first time they lay
eyes on each other. A true love is hard to come
by, yet the most fulfilling, beautiful, completing
achievement any man can have. Some have wealth,
some have power, some have great intellect, yet i feel
an infinant # of times greater than those as i
have found my true love.
There's another part of his journal where he mentions that he goes to the "5th dimension" and "the everything". What did these things mean to him? I think the only partial explanation is what he wrote here: "To explain the happiness is impossible ever for fate. its just a pure halcyon set to last more existences than a conceivable number." Seems like he's talking about an everlasting heaven? Something that can't be conceived can't be understood, so it still leads to no answer regarding what he is talking about.