"Spear me down, heaven." Poem by Seung-Hui Cho

"This thing, my life, all an agony, of Hell of torture... And years of bludgeoning torment, tiny nuisances. The
disgust eyes, dirty frowns, and red fingers pointing at me. Feeling all the patheticness and humiliation. What
time is right to abort the null existence and retire from sick lifeblood. And yet feelings-thwarted by sun's
beams ready to attack, averted by smiling faces ready to rape- come, a wish to annihilate my self... If this
wasn't true in my plaguing conscious. But Jesus Christ! Another day comes tomorrow, a shade better than
present, if I can imagine, a day anew like a new born or an old dying, when nothing is everything and everything
is nothing and all is mere shutting of eyelids. Good Christ! Rip me apart, tear me to shrivels, eat me to help me see a better day's worth and salvage this decaying thing from myself."

I can't post links, but it was the fourth entry at Virginia Tech's "22nd Annual Research Symposium and Exposition".

He really liked to use rape as a descriptor.

EricsToastInTheCaf wrote:

He really liked to use rape as a descriptor.

Maybe something about this has happened in his life...