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Yumeko-chan
Posts : 174 Contribution Points : 105590 Forum Reputation : 102 Join date : 2013-03-16 Age : 40 Location : Colorado Springs, CO
| Subject: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sat Jul 05, 2014 3:26 pm | |
| Experimenting a little here, intended to be the first in a series: [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.]Forgive my appearance, I was working on my car this morning. Plus my webcam apparently sucks =P | |
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queenfarooq
Posts : 709 Contribution Points : 102612 Forum Reputation : 10 Join date : 2013-03-17 Location : England
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sat Jul 05, 2014 3:49 pm | |
| Thank you so much for sharing this with us. | |
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tfsa47090 Global Moderator & Top 10 Contributor
Posts : 944 Contribution Points : 101288 Forum Reputation : 91 Join date : 2013-03-18
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sat Jul 05, 2014 5:33 pm | |
| Thank you for posting this here for everyone to see and listen to, Amanda. *Also, I'm so happy to hear you say "Yumeko", because now I know how to properly pronounce it! Until just now, I thought it was pronounced with a long "e" (You-mee-koh), now I know it's "You-meh-koh". | |
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Yumeko-chan
Posts : 174 Contribution Points : 105590 Forum Reputation : 102 Join date : 2013-03-16 Age : 40 Location : Colorado Springs, CO
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sat Jul 05, 2014 5:33 pm | |
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Mj2beat
Posts : 409 Contribution Points : 95304 Forum Reputation : 24 Join date : 2013-12-20 Age : 29 Location : A dark hole from the universe
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sat Jul 05, 2014 7:35 pm | |
| Thanks for sharing your life experience with us Yumeko, I really admire you. _________________ The most terrifying fact about the universe is not that it is hostile but that it is indifferent; but if we can come to terms with this indifference and accept the challenges of life within the boundaries of death — however mutable man may be able to make them — our existence as a species can have genuine meaning and fulfillment. However vast the darkness, we must supply our own light
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Yumeko-chan
Posts : 174 Contribution Points : 105590 Forum Reputation : 102 Join date : 2013-03-16 Age : 40 Location : Colorado Springs, CO
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sat Jul 05, 2014 10:14 pm | |
| It may not look like it but I'm actually forcing myself to talk slow in this video. I usually talk a mile a minute so it took some concentration to talk slower than normal (although there's a few spots where I accidentally talk fast). And yes I have a lisp, which I only notice when I'm hearing a recording of myself. And yes I have a stutter, a PTSD side-effect that I'll discuss in a later video ;P | |
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Juicy Jazzy
Posts : 512 Contribution Points : 98769 Forum Reputation : 21 Join date : 2013-09-03
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sun Jul 06, 2014 8:14 am | |
| Thank you! Great work. Hope you're doing ok. | |
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em81
Posts : 374 Contribution Points : 101474 Forum Reputation : 3 Join date : 2013-04-20 Age : 43 Location : Germany
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sun Jul 06, 2014 4:13 pm | |
| Thank you Amanda! We are all curious about part 2. I know you haven´t a good time, so I hope you will have a better time now. | |
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Wideawake
Posts : 320 Contribution Points : 102026 Forum Reputation : 0 Join date : 2013-03-20 Location : US
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Mon Jul 07, 2014 11:35 pm | |
| I think you're very brave to talk about and share your experience with the world. Hope you're doing well and I look forward to the next video. | |
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Yumeko-chan
Posts : 174 Contribution Points : 105590 Forum Reputation : 102 Join date : 2013-03-16 Age : 40 Location : Colorado Springs, CO
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sat Jul 12, 2014 6:52 pm | |
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Mj2beat
Posts : 409 Contribution Points : 95304 Forum Reputation : 24 Join date : 2013-12-20 Age : 29 Location : A dark hole from the universe
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sat Jul 12, 2014 10:01 pm | |
| - Yumeko-chan wrote:
- Part 2:
[You must be registered and logged in to see this link.] Thanks, I already saw it and is great to get to know little by little the whole high school day of one of the witnesses. I am waiting now the next one _________________ The most terrifying fact about the universe is not that it is hostile but that it is indifferent; but if we can come to terms with this indifference and accept the challenges of life within the boundaries of death — however mutable man may be able to make them — our existence as a species can have genuine meaning and fulfillment. However vast the darkness, we must supply our own light
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jettfyre80
Posts : 83 Contribution Points : 94485 Forum Reputation : 0 Join date : 2014-01-04 Location : SW Florida
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sat Jul 12, 2014 10:53 pm | |
| Excellent video, Amanda! _________________ "I'm in love with my sadness"
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Guest Guest
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sat Jul 12, 2014 11:30 pm | |
| Great video, Amanda! Your glasses are really cute, by the way. |
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Undyne
Posts : 211 Contribution Points : 102113 Forum Reputation : 27 Join date : 2013-03-17
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sun Jul 13, 2014 12:17 pm | |
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Thanks for sharing, Amanda.
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DaisyDelRey
Posts : 14 Contribution Points : 90348 Forum Reputation : 0 Join date : 2014-06-14
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Tue Jul 15, 2014 8:49 pm | |
| Thank you for sharing this! Looking forward to hearing more from you. | |
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henkdutank
Posts : 7 Contribution Points : 90786 Forum Reputation : 0 Join date : 2014-05-28
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Wed Jul 16, 2014 7:12 pm | |
| Thanks a lot Amanda, really looking forward to part 3.
This is a weird question, but you said you went to Dutch Creek Elementary. Coming from a Dutchman, what's Dutch about it? | |
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Yumeko-chan
Posts : 174 Contribution Points : 105590 Forum Reputation : 102 Join date : 2013-03-16 Age : 40 Location : Colorado Springs, CO
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sat Jul 19, 2014 10:55 am | |
| No idea, it's just a name to me ;) Also, it's my birthday today but I still made part 3! [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.] | |
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em81
Posts : 374 Contribution Points : 101474 Forum Reputation : 3 Join date : 2013-04-20 Age : 43 Location : Germany
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sat Jul 19, 2014 11:19 am | |
| happy birthday amanda, hope you have a great time. | |
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Juicy Jazzy
Posts : 512 Contribution Points : 98769 Forum Reputation : 21 Join date : 2013-09-03
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sat Jul 19, 2014 11:30 am | |
| You are amazing! | |
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fatlittleparasite
Posts : 79 Contribution Points : 97927 Forum Reputation : 4 Join date : 2013-08-22
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sat Jul 19, 2014 11:16 pm | |
| I hope you had a nice birthday, Amanda. Thanks for posting these--I look forward to them each week like I would a TV show! | |
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Yumeko-chan
Posts : 174 Contribution Points : 105590 Forum Reputation : 102 Join date : 2013-03-16 Age : 40 Location : Colorado Springs, CO
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sat Jul 26, 2014 9:35 pm | |
| Part 4: [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.]Not feeling good today so I'm a bit scatterbrained in this one. Plus now I'm realizing there's some details I left out, but I guess I'll have to fill those in in the next video. | |
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Yumeko-chan
Posts : 174 Contribution Points : 105590 Forum Reputation : 102 Join date : 2013-03-16 Age : 40 Location : Colorado Springs, CO
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sun Jul 27, 2014 5:22 pm | |
| Well...I blew an ovarian cyst very shortly after I recorded part 4...that explains a lot... | |
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Yumeko-chan
Posts : 174 Contribution Points : 105590 Forum Reputation : 102 Join date : 2013-03-16 Age : 40 Location : Colorado Springs, CO
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sat Aug 02, 2014 6:40 pm | |
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tfsa47090 Global Moderator & Top 10 Contributor
Posts : 944 Contribution Points : 101288 Forum Reputation : 91 Join date : 2013-03-18
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sat Aug 02, 2014 8:32 pm | |
| Amanda, you poor thing, it is just one thing after the other for you, isn't it? You've had a lot of health issues. I hope this is the end of them, it's horrible to say this, but you probably don't even blink an eye at these things anymore due to them happening so frequently.
I sincerely pray that you can go one year without any kind of hassle, tragedy or problem. It's about time, you deserve a year of peace (or preferably, a nice solid decade of peace, calm, and relative normalcy).
Thank you, once again, for sharing all of this with everyone. My hope is that whenever you do things like this; making videos, or engaging in conversation, that it helps to somewhat heal the wounds this has caused within you. I know they'll never entirely go away, but I really do pray and hope that it is helping to minimize it, at least moderately. | |
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Mj2beat
Posts : 409 Contribution Points : 95304 Forum Reputation : 24 Join date : 2013-12-20 Age : 29 Location : A dark hole from the universe
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sat Aug 02, 2014 10:16 pm | |
| - Yumeko-chan wrote:
- Part 5:
[You must be registered and logged in to see this link.] Thanks again Amanda, I hope you are really feeling better today. _________________ The most terrifying fact about the universe is not that it is hostile but that it is indifferent; but if we can come to terms with this indifference and accept the challenges of life within the boundaries of death — however mutable man may be able to make them — our existence as a species can have genuine meaning and fulfillment. However vast the darkness, we must supply our own light
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fatlittleparasite
Posts : 79 Contribution Points : 97927 Forum Reputation : 4 Join date : 2013-08-22
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sat Aug 02, 2014 10:54 pm | |
| I'd really be interested to hear about what it was like at Chatfield! I don't know much about that experince other than the split days. | |
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Yumeko-chan
Posts : 174 Contribution Points : 105590 Forum Reputation : 102 Join date : 2013-03-16 Age : 40 Location : Colorado Springs, CO
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sun Aug 03, 2014 8:02 am | |
| One year without ANYTHING happening would sure be nice, huh? Sometimes I wonder what the heck I did in my past life to deserve what my life has been like these last fifteen years! =P
This is actually the SECOND ovarian cyst I've blown. I had another one a year and a half ago that was absolutely massive (my stomach went flat and I lost ten pounds in the ensuing weeks) and it was even more painful than this one. | |
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Guest Guest
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Wed Aug 06, 2014 2:26 am | |
| I just finished video 3, its not the tragedy itself that appeals to me but the story of hope and the challenges you had to face and your will to survive. You survived Columbine, your gonna be fine don't let small obstacles get in the way of your goals. If you made it out of there alive without a scratch, somebody or something must be looking out for you. You were strong then and you are strong now, concentrate on your goals and keep your spirits up. I went to the Columbine memorial a few years ago, it was inspiring to see all the footnotes and positive messages on the walls there next to rebel hill. Hard to believe something like that happened in such a nice community, its beautiful there next to the foot hills. Its good to talk and tell your side of the story, I hope this has helped you express things and get stuff off your chest. Its all part of the healing process that never seems to go away when you experience a tragedy of that magnitude. |
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Juicy Jazzy
Posts : 512 Contribution Points : 98769 Forum Reputation : 21 Join date : 2013-09-03
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Wed Aug 06, 2014 11:17 am | |
| Now that I've watched your vids I read your comments on this forum in your voice. | |
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lasttrain
Posts : 624 Contribution Points : 102413 Forum Reputation : 74 Join date : 2013-04-04
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Wed Aug 06, 2014 6:39 pm | |
| One of the things that surprised me from this video series was that at least one student (Amanda) stopped in the offices or rooms adjacent to the library before finally evacuating the school (at least this was how I understood what you were saying Amanda).
It was always my understanding that all the students left their hiding places and then directly exited the school through the north facing door. Amanda, is that wrong, or was it a gradual, disorderly exit? Did other students stop in the offices or adjacent rooms? | |
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Yumeko-chan
Posts : 174 Contribution Points : 105590 Forum Reputation : 102 Join date : 2013-03-16 Age : 40 Location : Colorado Springs, CO
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Thu Aug 07, 2014 9:42 am | |
| Nope, just me. I couldn't even tell you why I did that. | |
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lasttrain
Posts : 624 Contribution Points : 102413 Forum Reputation : 74 Join date : 2013-04-04
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Thu Aug 07, 2014 1:19 pm | |
| Amanda, I have one more question about the students' escape from the library. Randy Brown has claimed that the door through which the students escaped was open during the shooting in the library and that the police officers outside were able to hear the shooting. Was the door open the whole time, or just after students left? If the door was open, would those immediately outside it have been able to hear what was going on? Obviously it was open after you left, as you can see here. [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.] | |
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lasttrain
Posts : 624 Contribution Points : 102413 Forum Reputation : 74 Join date : 2013-04-04
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Thu Aug 07, 2014 1:20 pm | |
| By the way, everyone should make a donation to Amanda's grad school fund. There have been 16000 posts on this site. If everyone gave fifty cents a post she would already have met her goal. She is a special member of this community and has been very generous with her time. Let's be generous back. | |
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Yumeko-chan
Posts : 174 Contribution Points : 105590 Forum Reputation : 102 Join date : 2013-03-16 Age : 40 Location : Colorado Springs, CO
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Thu Aug 07, 2014 3:34 pm | |
| Lasttrain: I have no way of knowing, sorry. And thank you for mentioning my grad school fund. I actually got my first donation a little bit ago! | |
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Guest Guest
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Thu Aug 07, 2014 4:27 pm | |
| I love your videos, Amanda. ;-; |
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Yumeko-chan
Posts : 174 Contribution Points : 105590 Forum Reputation : 102 Join date : 2013-03-16 Age : 40 Location : Colorado Springs, CO
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Thu Aug 07, 2014 5:16 pm | |
| A few links of interest: [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.] (me in the background at 1:57) [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.] (early interview with Joe) | |
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Yumeko-chan
Posts : 174 Contribution Points : 105590 Forum Reputation : 102 Join date : 2013-03-16 Age : 40 Location : Colorado Springs, CO
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sat Aug 09, 2014 4:23 pm | |
| YouTube has a 15-minute limit, but my webcam doesn't! So we've accidentally got a two-parter this week! Part 6a: [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.]Part 6b: [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.] | |
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Yumeko-chan
Posts : 174 Contribution Points : 105590 Forum Reputation : 102 Join date : 2013-03-16 Age : 40 Location : Colorado Springs, CO
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Thu Aug 14, 2014 11:42 am | |
| I have $100 raised in my GoFundMe! That covers half of my books! Wanna help me cover the other half? | |
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Yumeko-chan
Posts : 174 Contribution Points : 105590 Forum Reputation : 102 Join date : 2013-03-16 Age : 40 Location : Colorado Springs, CO
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sat Aug 16, 2014 11:04 pm | |
| Another two-parter because my battery died in the middle! (You can actually hear the warning if you listen closely in 7a) Part 7a: [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.]Part 7b: [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.] | |
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Guest Guest
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Sun Aug 17, 2014 12:57 am | |
| I just got back from North Carolina (I live in Alabama, so, ten hour drive, haha) because my uncle's intenstines burst, and this is the second thing that I'm most looking forward to, lol. |
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lasttrain
Posts : 624 Contribution Points : 102413 Forum Reputation : 74 Join date : 2013-04-04
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Mon Aug 18, 2014 1:11 pm | |
| Guys, if you watched the videos, donate to the fund. | |
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Mj2beat
Posts : 409 Contribution Points : 95304 Forum Reputation : 24 Join date : 2013-12-20 Age : 29 Location : A dark hole from the universe
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Mon Aug 18, 2014 5:19 pm | |
| - lasttrain wrote:
- Guys, if you watched the videos, donate to the fund.
I will donate soon when I get a bit more money, Amanda deserve it but you shouldnt say that we have to if we watch her videos because you dont know who can or not and YouTube is free. _________________ The most terrifying fact about the universe is not that it is hostile but that it is indifferent; but if we can come to terms with this indifference and accept the challenges of life within the boundaries of death — however mutable man may be able to make them — our existence as a species can have genuine meaning and fulfillment. However vast the darkness, we must supply our own light
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Yumeko-chan
Posts : 174 Contribution Points : 105590 Forum Reputation : 102 Join date : 2013-03-16 Age : 40 Location : Colorado Springs, CO
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Mon Aug 18, 2014 8:12 pm | |
| Mj has a point, and I'm not going to beg. | |
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lasttrain
Posts : 624 Contribution Points : 102413 Forum Reputation : 74 Join date : 2013-04-04
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Tue Aug 19, 2014 11:01 am | |
| - Mj2beat wrote:
- lasttrain wrote:
- Guys, if you watched the videos, donate to the fund.
I will donate soon when I get a bit more money, Amanda deserve it but you shouldnt say that we have to if we watch her videos because you dont know who can or not and YouTube is free. I didn't say you have to. I just urged you to do so. Even if it's only $5. | |
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Yumeko-chan
Posts : 174 Contribution Points : 105590 Forum Reputation : 102 Join date : 2013-03-16 Age : 40 Location : Colorado Springs, CO
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Fri Aug 22, 2014 9:14 am | |
| Yep, it happened. Somebody commented on part 3 accusing me of embellishing my story for sympathy. (I deleted the comment and banned him from my channel.) WHY would I do that?! | |
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em81
Posts : 374 Contribution Points : 101474 Forum Reputation : 3 Join date : 2013-04-20 Age : 43 Location : Germany
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Fri Aug 22, 2014 11:05 am | |
| Hi Amanda, I don´t want to bother you. If I do, ignore me please. My question: did you know Marla Foust? | |
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Yumeko-chan
Posts : 174 Contribution Points : 105590 Forum Reputation : 102 Join date : 2013-03-16 Age : 40 Location : Colorado Springs, CO
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Fri Aug 22, 2014 11:15 am | |
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em81
Posts : 374 Contribution Points : 101474 Forum Reputation : 3 Join date : 2013-04-20 Age : 43 Location : Germany
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Fri Aug 22, 2014 11:41 am | |
| Thank you. | |
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Yumeko-chan
Posts : 174 Contribution Points : 105590 Forum Reputation : 102 Join date : 2013-03-16 Age : 40 Location : Colorado Springs, CO
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Fri Aug 22, 2014 1:37 pm | |
| I don't know if that person is on this board or not, but I just now had someone post on 7b suggesting I'm telling my story just to raise money for grad school (since I have the link to my GoFundMe in the last few videos). That's not it at all. I actually got accepted AFTER I started making the videos. The videos are more for me than for anyone else. As far as part 8 goes, in which I'm gonna cover the three years I got molested, I don't even have to divulge that. I can keep it secret if I want. But I'm not going to, because it played a large part in molding me and my PTSD. And it's to show Mike that I'm not going to hide what he did! That he was taking advantage of my mental state to get some quick feels for three years! And that to this day, I have NO self-esteem because of him! I've been ill all week just thinking of having to record that video tomorrow!
I'm not making anybody donate. It's simply a suggestion. If no one wants to, that's fine. If anyone here is honestly bugged by me linking to my GoFundMe, I'll remove it from my signature. But to accuse me of making the videos simply to get donations is disgusting. | |
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Juicy Jazzy
Posts : 512 Contribution Points : 98769 Forum Reputation : 21 Join date : 2013-09-03
| Subject: Re: My words, now in video format! Whee! Fri Aug 22, 2014 8:53 pm | |
| That guy sounds like a troll on Youtube. No one from this website would write such horrible things to you. Look at some Rachel Scott videos on Youtube. There is always a handful of rude comments ("stuck up bitch", "she deserved to die", etc). We are so grateful that you are even making these videos. | |
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