It stroke me hard when I realized it's 04/20. It's 23:00 here in Germany so almost midnight, but something led me back to this place. The weird thing is that I haven't opened my Columbine folders and files on my PC for roughly a year and still I think about this day.
Many things have been posted on page one in this thread I just can agree to!
To me, decay is something I can not handle. Questions and feelings about death like the fatalities happened 18 years ago are so deep and dark I can not even express. I have not been there, I have been 8.5 years at that time and live(d) thousands miles away, but as someone said, nostalgia is a part of it and simple empathy for ALL parties involved.
I've been browsing to the stickies with the library footage from '98 and it's like a time capsule. The VHS quality, the CRTs, the way people are dressed. For some reason, which is also a super strange coincidence, I connect Britney Spears to that time. Her famous album has been released on 20.04.1999.....
I think it's hard to open that capsule every year and take a deep breath of all the emotions, the grief, the sadness. I just can imagine how hard it might be for the families. Thinking about they would be 35 years by now gives me, a grown man, the shivers and sligth tears in my eyes..
This forum and its users always made it possible to discuss this with "passion" yet respect to what happened. The Columbine Shooting has an eerie attraction of morbid curiosity and shared sadness and emotions it's great - in it's twisted way.
I joined in, I think, 2010 on the old forums and am lurking and loggin in rarely, but I still feel that I had good reads and deep discussions over the past eight years. So before I log off and go back to lurk mode, I felt the urge to express my personal feeling.