Did Eric and Dylan ever had second thoughts about Columbine?

Basically where there times and possibly did they ever talk about ever having second thoughts about their massacre? Eric wrote on a paper during the van incident about having homicidal thoughts, so...

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“You have vandalized my heart, raped my soul and torched my conscience. You thought it was one pathetic, bored life you were extinguishing."
- Seung Hui Cho

“There isn’t an open sky or endless field to be found where I reside, not is there light or salvation to be discovered. Right about now I feel as low as I ever have. So fucking naive man, so fucking naive. Always expecting change when I know nothing ever changes… I sacrifice no more for others, part of me has fucking died and I hate this shit. I’m living every mans nightmare and that single fact alone is kicking my ass.”
-Jeff Weise

I imagine they did. I think they were genuinely planning it starting in the summer of 1998 IIRC and I know in one of the journals on a date in March of 1999- they wrote "death, afraid"

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"And you know, you know, you know, this can be beautiful, you say you're numb inside, but I can't agree. So the world's unfair, keep it locked out there. In here it's beautiful."

Screamingophelia wrote:: I imagine they did. I think they were genuinely planning it starting in the summer of 1998 IIRC and I know in one of the journals on a date in March of 1999- they wrote "death, afraid"

Thanks. I’m sure deep down they didn’t want to hurt people, but they felt like there was no were to go, and they just became too consumed with hatred. I’m also curious on how they began to plan it, like did they drop hints to each other about it and then once they got an idea? It’s rare to see two mass shooters so how they planned it together is interesting.

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“You have vandalized my heart, raped my soul and torched my conscience. You thought it was one pathetic, bored life you were extinguishing."
- Seung Hui Cho

“There isn’t an open sky or endless field to be found where I reside, not is there light or salvation to be discovered. Right about now I feel as low as I ever have. So fucking naive man, so fucking naive. Always expecting change when I know nothing ever changes… I sacrifice no more for others, part of me has fucking died and I hate this shit. I’m living every mans nightmare and that single fact alone is kicking my ass.”
-Jeff Weise

I found that comment in Dylan's journal disturbing... the "Death (Afraid?)" note. I thought that was May 1999 and he was using the month to make notes on NBK, like his to do list. I Google Armed Forces Day to see when it fell on that particular date. Anyway, I always wondered if he wrote that because it was something he wanted to discuss with Eric.

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